And it's not that I'm thinking dyeing my hair dark brown was a huge mistake, but I think dark brown looks better.. in my imagination. It's not that I thought I would end up a bombshell with dark brown hair, but I definitely thought it would suit me better than my light hair. I've always liked light hair. Alas, being Asian, my natural hair color is black (I know there are Asians with naturally brown hair, but I mean, most of Asians have black hair).
A year ago and a half, I decided to go to a hair salon get streaks of my hair bleached. I actually wanted all of my hair bleached, but the hairdresser told me this would be very damaging to my hair, so I agreed to have a lot of hair streaks bleached instead.
This was my hair color before getting my hair bleached (after repetitive blonde hair dyes for about two years):
And then three months passed, and I 'realized' black roots on blonde hair did not look good at all.
I also learned of the existence of toning shampoo, but was not a fond of using it. But yeah, eventually my beautiful blonde streaks started to turn yellow-orange. ヽ(ಠДಠ)ﾉ
So I went back to the hair salon to fix my roots, but also lighten my hair again (bleached streaks).
First time bleaching made my hair quite dry, but the dryness must not have been that bad, because I don't really remember having excessive dry hair. Second time bleaching though was another thing.
This time, my hair was so dry. It's when I look back at that moment that I realize how dry it was. But at that time, I wasn't really conscious of how damaged my hair was after that second bleaching job.
Actually, I loved my light hair, despite the ends that were so dry for days (eventually it went away).
Hmm I don't really know where I'm going with this, but all this to say that I always loved light hair.
I kept light hair like this for a good one year and a half. And I got used to seeing myself with light hair. Since I was 14, my goal was to reach a very light color. I had actually half-reached that goal when I was 15 and bought Revlon Frost & Glow which really did a decent job in my opinion), but then one month later I got tired and dyed my hair very dark brown, and then jet black. JET BLACK. Can you believe it.
I never really stuck to my hair color when I was younger. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Then I had no choice but to keep jet black because it's practically impossible to go from jet black to light hair. But I didn't and ended up at the hairdresser to fix an uneven foam dye I had tried on my jet black dyed hair ft. natural black roots.. And two years later (2012) I restarted dyeing it, but this time, I sticked to my goal; going lighter and lighter each dye (to end up with hair you see on the first picture).
So I've been used to seeing light hair when I looked in the mirror for about three years. And I liked it!
I felt special because I think even though there are Asians out there that dye their hair different colors than brown, not many Asians have light hair.
And also, I secretly wanted light hair because that would 'un-asian' me, like make me look less asian. I thought how cool it would be if people would ask me my ethnicity, because my light hair confused them, instead of already assuming I was Asian.
And in fact, I did get a lot of comments from people who could not believe me when I told them I was Asian (or were just surprised to know I was Asian). But I really don't know if it was my hair that made them think this way.
Anyway, back to the present in 2015.
Having light hair is cool~ except for the roots. I actually had huge black roots in April 2015 and then dyed all of my hair red, which was a fail because only the roots turned red (which is the top of my head) but the rest stayed blonde?!
A couple of weeks after, my mother dyed my hair a blonde color to kind of blend both colors together. Improvement observed.
September 2015, dyeing my roots again with blonde dye. Ends up kind of copper light-brown (it's darker than the tips), not much of a surprise.
I absolutely love this color, but sometimes,
it just looks ugly on me because of my skin color.
Then, some things happened; and it made me consider my hair color.
Dark hair = going back to boring. But if I can make my face stand out, maybe I'd be less boring-looking.
October 2015, starting to think about going back to dark hair (for a couple of reasons).
October 17th, my mother dyes my hair very dark chocolate brown....,!!!!
With flash
I don't love it, but neither do I hate it.
I do miss my light hair, but only in certain lightings. Sometimes, it would look nice, but other times it looked very unnatural because of my skin color, and some bleached streaks would fade to yellow overtime. When I took selfies, my hair would usually look great with my face, but then I'm in a group picture and it looks hideous. lol.
And also, my hair is so damaged. I really want to not dye my hair excessively or bleach it again. If I had kept light hair, I would have had to continue fixing the roots regularly. I'm kinda tired of this now. If I want light hair back, I'm gonna buy a freaking wig (I'm serious). But the thing is, my hair is SO thin because of all it endured those past years..... my hair have always been thin, but they definitely thinned out a lot since I started dyeing them. So I really want to grow out healthy hair again...
Anyway thank you for reading. Or just looking at the pictures.
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